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Panic Attacks - Bowel Cancer

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Hi all,

I've recently been diagnosed (about 3 weeks ago) with bowel cancer In my right side. At first I went through all the emotions you could imagine and thought I was finally doing ok.

After the MDT meeting My nurse said that on the CT the tumour looked bulky but isn't obstructing anything. She also said that my lungs and kidneys are clear and they don't think it's spread, However, I do have a slightly fatty liver which she explained could be down to my weight/diet and they've ordered a PET scan to have a look at it. I'm also booked in for a MRI so they can get a better look at my bulky tumour. She said that it's been there a while by the looks of things. 
 

I felt like I was finally adjusting to things and that I was ready to fight this, however today I've felt like there's a dark cloud over me. Plagued with thoughts that the worst is gonna happen, I feel like I can't breathe. I Feel like I'm starting  to freak out, as though it's finally hitting me, even though I thought I had already. 
 

Next week I have my MRI, PET scan and 2nd Iron infusion before the 2nd MDT meeting takes place on Monday 17th. Does anyone think these feelings are because of this or will I always have days like this?

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    Hi finding Nemo,

    Panic Attacks will become your norm if you don't talk to your doctor in time and be put on some kind of relaxers, they are very very scary,I'm after taking so manynive lost count and I had to call 999 as I got one where all my fingers and feet turned inwards and froze,they said that was an extremely bad one,I pray I never get one like that again,get all the help you can early to avoid this,I'm six months in,had to stop chemo as nearly killed me with sepcis,so waiting on radiotherapy now and everything is so scary,because it's all new to us,try to stay as positive as you can, says me that's a nervous wreck,

    But please get all these feelings out to team looking after you or your own Gp,wishing younthe best of luck,

    Angie!

     

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    Hi Findingnemo, there is a lot going on in a short time and it all begins to become too much.  So just take each day as it comes and concentrate on what is happening that day.  Then if you have a clear day do something normal, meet a friend or go for a walk just to have some normality.  You will get through this but trying to cope with it all is hard.  We had the worst diagnosis for lung cancer three years ago and went through all the same scans etc. So we know how it gets to you.  Stay positive and think the best it truly helps with your mindset, everyone will be helping you, take that help and don't give up.  Good luck with what happens next, keep us posted.  Best wishes, Carol 

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