Hi,

I know people can tell you not to worry but that is easier said that done!! If they didn't find a mass in your armpit, that is positive!! And really, all you can do is now sit out the wait. I went to get my results with the idea that it was going to be bad news - so actually felt ok when they confirmed it was cancer. You have to hold to the fact most of the breast cancers are now found so early that they are very treatable. The fluttering in your chest is probably anxiety.  Let me know how you get on.

Caroline x

Thank you for your reply, how are you getting on? I am thinking all sorts that it's spread and imagining in my chest and bones. I am being very dramatic I know it's just such a shock. It's definitely cancer just need to find t stage and next steps. Am I right in thinking the op they may remove a lymph to confirm things? 

Thank you, it's so hard not knowing and waiting. Did you have an ultrasound on your underarm that showed anything or was it at lumpectomy they found the micro metastasis? X

I completely get that. The waiting for all the appointments /procedures really is the hardest. The ultrasound didn't pick up anything under my arm. They tested 3 of my sentenol nodes and 2 were clear and 1 had micro metastises, but that meant I didn't need my anxillery nodes removed. Xx

Thank you, would a mammogram and ultrasound have shown if the cancer was in my chest wall or other nearby tissues? I'm back on google today feeling stressed

Don't do it to yourself!!! An ultra sound would have picked up if you had enlarged nodes or tumours in your armpit. I doubt very much it is in your chest wall, but I suppose they wouldn't know just until they do your survey.  My mammogram didn't even pick my cancer up. Stop googling stuff - focus and enjoy spending time with your family xx

Thank you. Ok enough googling!

Good!! Go and enjoy your weekend xx

Hi Claire,

How are you doing?

Caroline xx

They have to prepare you. They told me the same thing. You really need to wait till the op, to find out for certain. My sister died of breast cancer at 32 so I had to fill in a genetic questionnaire, turns out I'm just unlucky!!! Did she give you any idea of when your op will be? 
xx

Oh I'm so sorry to hear about your sister, that must have been so hard for you, and then to be diagnosed yourself. It's so scary. So were you genetic tested? I haven't had any word of my op yet, it's been 2 weeks since the mammogram, one week since results, I was told it could be 2-6 weeks so just a waiting game. I am having ok days but very anxious and finding it all very hard. 

My sister died in 2004, so quite a while ago. After she died I was sent to see a genealogist and had to go through family history. They felt I wasn't really at any more risk than anyone else - I was 33 when she died. This time, I just had to complete a family history questionnaire bit no tests.

I got my biopsy results in the middle of July and had my op on the 15th August, so a 4 week wait. They will have to do it within a certain amount of time so I'm sure you should get a date soon. Keep your chin up hun xz

My sister died in 2004, so quite a while ago. After she died I was sent to see a genealogist and had to go through family history. They felt I wasn't really at any more risk than anyone else - I was 33 when she died. This time, I just had to complete a family history questionnaire bit no tests.

I got my biopsy results in the middle of July and had my op on the 15th August, so a 4 week wait. They will have to do it within a certain amount of time so I'm sure you should get a date soon. Keep your chin up hun xz

Ah thank you. Hope you are feeling ok yourself? Has life returned to some sort of normal for you now? X

I'm good!! And yes, life is back to normal but to be honest I tried to make life normal throughout the whole process. I had my op in August, then another one in Sept. I had radiotherapy in November, for 3 weeks. Now on tamoxifen - which makes me feel pretty exhausted but take it before bed. I have my first check up in April. I do worry about it coming back but try to not let it over power me and I know it's unlikely. Im sure as April approaches I will start to get a bit more anxious but my mantra is to focus on the positives everyday. This is a wake up call and life is for living. I am determined that cancer will not get the better of me - mentally or physically.

xx

That's so good, You have such a good positive outlook and I appreciate your messages. They make me feel better. Thank you! I'm glad you are feeling good x

Hello, how are you? I've got my date for lumpectomy and senital node op it's 9th March, so quite a wait then another wait for results. I'm struggling with positivity at the moment x

Hi Claire, not too far away - 3 weeks.  It's the waiting and not knowing that is definitely the hardest. I've been out with my friend from work today. She was diagnosed with breast cancer a few weeks after me, but she's only 29. She has had to have chemo, which made me feel really guilty about, as she's had a much harder journey than me. But she's got chemo no.5 on Tuesday and then just one more, 3 weeks after that. She's had a mastectomy and will also need radiotherapy, but she's so upbeat!! The chemos been hard but she's been a trooper and made it look easy!!! So, please - even if you need chemo, it's not the end of the world - they will sort you out and give you the best treatment you need. My friend has even embrassed the bald look and looks amazing. Try and focus on positive things - don't dell on what might be!! Xxx

That's so good she's getting on well. It can't have been easy. There's so many different journeys. Waiting and not knowing is proving to be hard so I only hope I can cope with the rest of the journey. I've been reading lots again tonight. I really wish I hadn't! I was meant to be having reiki tomorrow which I was hoping would ease some of the anxious thoughts but we have lots of weather warnings here and the place I was going to is affected by tides so will need to re arrange. My poor husband is doing his best and it's so hard for him seeing me down. Tomorrow I'll be positive thank you for your reply 

Claire,

This is beyond a doubt, will be one of the hardest journeys you will travel in life and will give you lots of ups and downs. Stop googling and start thinking of the battle and that you will be stronger than cancer. Don't let it win!! Hope you manage to get your reiki tomorrow!! I'm off to London for a chocolate afternoon tea, with unlimited Prosecco - so food and alcohol that isn't good but life is for living!!! Hope the storms aren't too bad up there xx

Hope you are having a great time in London! Sounds amazing. I did the moonwalk there years ago, it's a fab city. My sister in law used to live there. Going for reiki at 2. I think it will help. Then a family weekend of fun with the kids and my husband. Xx

Hi Claire,

Ive done the moonwalk about 8 or 9 times!! Had a fab day in London. Hope your reiki went ok? Xx

Great glad  you enjoyed London! Reiki was so good I'm booked in for another two before my op x