New diagnosis and feeling numb

I went to a routine mammogram check for over 50s and was recalled for further checks a few weeks ago. A week later I found myself undergoing another mammogram plus a scan and a biopsy for a lump they found in my breast. I asked whether they thought it was bad news and they kept saying it looked suspicious. I was terrified whilst I waited a week for the results. Yesterday I was told I have early stage bc and they said it was great I had a check and they found it early. 
It doesn't feel great to me. I've switched onto auto pilot and feel numb and in denial. Having to tell my 4 kids was the worst thing I've ever had to do. They are all over the place and I've got to be strong for them. I feel at some point the realisation will hit me like a crashing wave and I'll break down emotionally. Until then I'm waiting for an appointment with the surgical team. I just feel so lost and scared. 

  • So sorry to hear your news, it is never easy to accept but you have to take comfort that it has been caught early and seen so many times by the doctors that you are in the best of hands. Since my diagnosis ‘Knowledge is Power’ has definitely become my mantra, now you know it’s there it can be tackled.

    You are entitled to breakdown emotionally whenever you need to, no one deserves to go through this and having a cry/rant when you need to I find is necessary otherwise I’d explode!!!

    I’m halfway through my chemo treatment now after finding a lump last summer, about to turn 40 next week (never thought this is how I’d be spending my 40th year), i’m finding joys in the small things like my kiddies fighting over telling me first what happened at school that day, blasting out music while I sit on the exercise bike, knowing that this isn’t going to be forever, I hope you can find things that will get you through because you will get through it just like I will!!