I saw the doctor a couple of days ago. I was doing pretty well, re worry, until then. The doctor and her nurse treated me like an idiot, maybe because I've totally lost my voice. They wore these fixed rictus smiles that haunt my nightmares since. They didn't really tell me anything. They want to take a biopsy by punching through my skin to confirm cancer.
I have to see my mum today, Christmas day, and I don't know how I am you going to keep it together. I haven't told her yet. I feel so guilty. I don't want to spoil her little Christmas.
I don't want the biopsy. I'm scared of getting air onto the assumed cancer.
I think I need anxiety medication. The doctor never even suggested antibiotics so I guess all that horror film smiling was to indicate I shouldn't be worrying about next Xmas. feel so terribly guilty about this.
What's anxiety medication should I ask for? I am pretty sure it's already spread to my adrenal gland? from a hint they gave. I feel very doomed.