Hello,

i cant even believe I am here, on this chat, writing this. I am in so much pain I can’t breath and don’t know where to turn. I have just found out today that my mum has inoperable pancreatic cancer, she is 75 and I am 50 with a six year old daughter. We never saw this coming! My dad is 80 and has been ill, he is very badly crippled with arthritis and my lovely mum has been his main carer. My daughter adores her and we have decided not to tell her the seriousness of the diagnosis as yet, I don’t know if this is right or wrong, I can’t think straight, I feel devastated and heartbroken! I have faced the fear of losing my dad but never my mum. I am so scared! Scared for her, me my dad and daughter! I don’t know how to carry on, I don’t know how to get me or my family through this! I am scared and lost and slipping into hell!! I know I need to be strong for everyone, I feel selfish talking about me when it is she that is going through this! She held my daughter in her gentle arms tonight, kind loving ars that I know so well as they have held me and comforted me so often and was paralysed by grief and fear! Help me please someone! I know we have to take this one day at a time. 

Kim20