Hi all,

Well this has been a whirlwind couple of weeks.

About 5 months ago I discovered a little change to my left testicle. I thought as my daughter was then 2 as I picked her up she accidentally kicked me there, that it was just a little bruising and left it. The tenderness came and went until I just continued to get more and more worried I went to the GP.

A few weeks on and after blood tests and ultrasound scans, I am in for a CT scan tomorrow and then surgery on Tueaday to have it removed. I know what it probably is but hope that it is something that looks like cancer.

I have no other symptoms although my brain has gone into overdrive after reading loads after googling it. How stupid, yes I know. I ran my fastest 11 km today, faster than 5 years ago. I feel good other than the anxiety.

I guess the most nervous I am is for the CT scan and if it has spread. My blood tests both of them have come back clear which is something I am clinging onto and the fact that I can't believe that I am getting faster with my running if I am that ill.

All I am really looking for is some reassurance, I am struggling and thinking the worst constantly. I hope before my surgery they will give me my CT results. I am also worried that I have been rushed through so quick that they are keeping something from me and that it is more serious than they have indicated.

I really just want to hear some good news stories and not all the doom and gloom I am inevitably finding. We are a young family and there is no chance I am leaving them, i need them and they need me.

One other thing is that what I felt 5 months ago is still the same now. I can't really feel anything, it's there that is confirmed but I guess what I am saying it hasn't grown. Is this a positive?

Thanks for reading.

Cheers

Adam