I am struggling to stay strong at the minute. My mum has re-occurring bladder cancer. She was first diagnosed 9 years ago and on a regular check a couple of months ago, they discovered a new tumour, this has been removed and she is waiting for a further biopsy to see if it has spread deeper into the wall.

While we were waiting for a follow up, my dad was taken into hospital in September thinking he had had another heart attack but after various tests and scans they have found that dad has Oesophageal Cancer which has spread into some of his lymph nodes.

We were told yesterday that dad's cancer is untreatable. I am devastated, Dad is 77 but I have always been a dad's girl and just don't know how to act, how to cope with everything and support them both. My dad is of the old "Just soldier on!" era but I can see he is scared and lost, and that breaks my heart. He will absolutely dread becoming really ill and relying on others, it’s his worst nightmare and knowing that also makes this so difficult.

Mum has put off appointments whilst waiting for dad's diagnosis, so we have yet to find out the full extent of mum's reoccurrence. 

I am trying to be brave for mum and dad but its so hard to be able to open up to anyone about my fears.