Hi everyone

Its been a while since I last wrote and so much has happened.

My cancer was confirmed as stage 3 and I have had surgery to remove my right breast and lymph nodes.  I was referred to oncology for treatment and after waiting 4 weeks they planned my chemo.  I was sent for an echo of my heart just to check as i have cardiomyopathy.  Unfortunately the results were poor and my chemo was postponed until they had spoken with my cardiologist.  another couple of weeks went by and I went back to see my oncologist.  He has decided to give me hormone treatment as my cancer is hormone based but they dont know if i can have radiotherapy.  

I really dont know how to feel right now, ive gone from being told to have chemo, hormone treatment and radiotherapy, to just hormone.   The treatment plan im on will go on for 5 years!   I was hoping for 1 year and then its all over!

The hormone treatment im told makes you feel as if you are going through the menopause, I think i am so my poor husband will get it even more!

To make matters worse my right shoulder is so painful, I am trying to do the excercises but it is difficult.

All i seem to want to do right now is cry and im trying to keep positive but its so hard.

Thanks for reading this and helping me to get it off my chest, (half of one anyway!)

Tracey