Hi there ..

Bless ya, it's just as hard for those we love as having cancer ... I've been on both sides and watching someone go through this journey is heartbraking, coz there's nothing we can do to make it go away .. 

So firstly, forgive yourself ... your walking a path loads of us have walked .. I've found admitting your scared ... having a good old rant and cuss at cancer , gets those emotions out .. and tell yourself it's o.k to feel them ..

Then after it's all out .. get back up .. get a pair of vertual boxing gloves on and join us all in the ring ready to kick it's ***... no one knows if they have tomorrow... cancer or no cancer .. but yes it's about balance .. giving in to emotions .. sharing tears .. hugs .. and admitting your both scared .. and then walk this path together .. weather long or short .. don't look ahead then it's overwhelming...live in the day .. and take each problem as a step .. and take one step at a time ... your not alone .. everyone on here has loved ones going through those same emotions ..

So now you need to step up .. you can't change what's happened , but you can go forward together .. she's got enough to deal with, she can't cope with your problems too .. she needs to focus ... you need to step up ... after you let it all out .. you can always come here and vent ... 

Sending you a vertual hug...  Chrissie x