hi, I’m unsure why I’m posting this but I feel like I need to put this out somewhere because I’m feeling extremely anxious. 

My mother recently was diagnosed with an adenocarcinoma and had began receiving palliative treatment to keep the cancer the same size and to control symptoms. She did not want to know how severe the cancer was. 

Generally, she looks really well for a woman her age, she’s active and still is with the chemotherapy, but today she was discharged from hospital and we unintentionally looked at the GO letter and noticed that there was a cancer grade next to her diagnosis. I told her I didn’t know what it meant though. 

I know what this means as I have some knowledge of the grading system and it means that she has stage 4 lung cancer. 

My mum was diagnosed in April and all her scans have showed no growth but I can’t stop thinking about losing her. It’s just me and my mum so we are very close and I can’t help but worry all the time that I’m going to lose her very soon. I made the mistake of looking at statistics and it says people diagnosed with lung cancer stage 4 tend not to live past a year .

Again, I don’t know why I’m posting this but I just needed to put this somewhere