Basically I’m just going to have a rant. I feel like I’m being knocked down at every turn. Each time I’m told things aren’t that bad or I’m given some positive news I go back to be told that things are worse. All of this before I’ve even started treatment. I’ll break things down.
March; attends the gp with a lump, assured it’s nothing. Then waits 4 months to be referred to the breast clinic. I’m told there is a very concerning lump. I go back for results and the dr says good news it’s not breast cancer probably just swollen gland. I then go back a week later to be told I’ve got lymphoma.
July we are now at the second hospital and I’m told things look very positive probably stage 2 very treatable etc. I go back yesterday to be told it is in fact stage 4 and has spread to my bones! It’s ok though because I should remain optimistic (sarcastic comment there)
I’m just so so angry. I honestly feel like someone keeps asking me to sit down and they are moving the chair away.
To top things off I still don’t have a treatment plan which I was expecting to get yesterday because the drs need a meeting to discuss logistics, whatever that means.
I know I’m not the worst off by far and things can always be worse but I’m usually the person telling everyone to be positive and that’s well and truly gone already.
