Sorry if you get this twice my last post didnt seem to work.

Same happened to me this week except my dr told me he thinks i have cancer but cant be 100% until biopsy comes back. I am 37 and was told not to worry by dr on first examination too so i know what a shock it must have been. 

When do you get your results? 

I get my results this Thursday it seems such a slog to get there I can’t get it out of my head and I’m not sleeping properly when do you get your results? How are you feeling? 

Hi

I believe you are still in this cloud that you do not know what is going on ..  the good think they are doing all the test need it to be sure what to tell you.Now the waiting gain starts,this is a killer your brain starts making fantasies about the results, etc.

On your next appointment take somebody with you, the person who come with  would be able to  ask the questions with detail, you won’t be able to understand half what there are saying as you would be in shock and  brain do not function as it should.

I was be there on your  position, all the best for Thursday :)

Hi Helen.

Dont get mine until 16th but will only get half as waiting for further biopsy to check calcium should be next week.

I have started to write questions down to take with me as will forget once i am there. 

I keep worrying they have missed something and not scanned full area or other side etc. Trying to stop my mind running away with me. 

I may not be there in person but i will be with you in spirit on Thurs.

I know exactly how you are feeling so if you want to chat am here.

I dont know about you.. but even tho i have great support its a very lonely feeling. 

I think its harder not having all the answers yet i think lw345 reply is right this waiting is awful. 

Rest up and i hope you get some sleep soon as being exhausted can make you feel quite low too.

Xx 

what are they checking for from the second biopsy they were taking about doing another biopsy on the day I was there but the radiologist said she thought I’d been through enough for one day whatever that means.

Do you have a partner children etc I have five children under nine so if they are right and I have to have treatment I don’t know what’s going to happen or how we would cope financially if I have to go sick from work 

I had a meltdown last night I cried myself to sleep I think everything just got the better of me I hadn’t really cried up until then. I do feel better for it today though, the 16th seems ages away for you it is like torture but I know they can’t do it quicker biopsy’s take ages to come back x 

They found some calcium deposits that they want to check but as i need a specialised biopsy i have to go back sometime next week. (Appoint pending)

I have one amazing step son who is 18 and the most wonderful husband. 

I wish I had 5 children! I always wanted a big family. I get your worries though and i think the not having any answers makes your mind go into over drive. Have you told your employers anything yet? Hopefully they will be supportive if you need anything from them. 

I have cried a few times i always seem a bit calmer after. It must be hard for you though trying to not show worry or sadness in front of the children. My step son doesnt know yet but he is often out so i have been crying plenty! 

Do you have plenty of support round you? Have you been assigned a breast cancer nurse yet? I have which has made me panic more but at least it means i have someone to ring with any questions. 

Hi, how has your day been? it's been a long one for me

oh I see so you don't know when your actual appointment is then yet that's a bit rubbish how are you feeling about having the biopsy? 

yes, I have told work briefly only because I work nights and I had the biopsy last Wednesday and I should have been working but the hospital told me strict rest for 24-48 hours after they were alright, to be honest, have you told your employers anything?

the kids well the younger ones I have two-year-old twins and a four-year-old are just too little to understand but the older ones 7 and 9 could understand but I'm not sure if I'm going to tell them anything.

yes, the cancer specialist nurse gave me her card and told me to contact her anytime, to be honest, I just want to know it feels like a lifetime I'm really hoping they have got it all wrong and im going to wake up from this bad dream.

Day been ok. Had a little wobble at work and have done tonight. Have now convinced myself my ibs is something more sinister.

Sometimes i have managed to forget and have a laugh but then it comes back!

Get biopsy results 16th but will only be for half tests as not had appoint letter yet for 2nd biospy. Seems ages away and am fed up if honest.

How have you been? Are you still managing to have periods where you feel 'normal' and forget for a bit?

Am glad you only have few days left until result day. I think whatever happens it will be easier to deal with when we actually know what is happening.

Hope you get a good sleep tonight xx

I think wobbles are normal given the circumstances I’m trying to hold it together it’s really difficult to forget it isn’t it I am like you managing to have a few moments of feeling “normal” but it never lasts very long. 

I know what you mean about your ibs every ache and pain I get I think its something else I guess at times like this your mind just works overtime it’s hard to stay rational at times 

we go on holiday next week so whatever they say on Thursday I’m not going to be doing anything until after we get back we only have one holiday a year and the kids are so excited hopefully if I have a plan like you say it will be easier to deal with.

it feels like a lifetime for me waiting so goodness knows how you feel x 

Morning Helen.

Sorry for late reply. Just wanted to say know you get your results today so wanted to say good luck and will be thinking of you xx