Hi There - This is not my first post but I can't seem to find a similar post with regards to the stage I am at at the moment.  I have a lump in my neck which I have been told is two lymph nodes which contain cancerous cells, plus a blocked saliva gland.  I only got the phone call two days ago and now have to wait for a letter with an appt for further tests/scans. It was such a shock to hear the word cancer - but now, not knowing what kind of cancer I have - my brain is racing and I feel as if I am going out of my mind with worry.  Sometimes I tell myself that it is 'just' contained within these two lymph nodes and other times I tell myself that is the secondary spot and the cancer is raging through my body.  It's this knowing but not knowing.  I realise no one can tell me on here what it is I have - but it helps to write this down.  Thank you all for listening.

ps A week ago at an ENT appt the consultant told me I did not have cancer and what I had was a blocked saliva gland.  You can imagine my joy.  However he said he would send me for a scan anyway as otherwise I would 'not believe him'.  It was that same consultant who rang me to tell me the biopsy showed cancerous cells.