Hi, i was diagnosed with endometrial cancer about 9 weeks ago. Unfortunately I also have uncontrolled asthma which is making the anaesthetic for a hysterectomy an issue. Already had it cancelled because they will need a bed in intensive care and didn't have one, they did however not tell me this till I was already there ready to put the gown on. Unless you have been there, it's impossible to understand the hell and fear you go through just getting there, only to find your going home, cancer still intact. I now not only have the cancer to fear but breathing issues with the anaesthetic. 

Im a widow but lucky to have my children and grandchildren. With all the love and respect for them I have never felt so alone in all my life, I've no one I can be honest with and just be allowed to be scared, I have to be the strong one who is always there for them. 

Falling apart inside, don't know how to stop the fear 

Sad, afraid and lonely