Hi there alli ...

Well bless ya .. can you imagine someone puts you on a spinning top at the fun fare ... and everyone goes home, and your left there spinning, till a lot later when someone comes back... stops the ride and let's you out ... well it would take quite a while befor your head a body stopped spinning .. it would take a fare old while for you to go back to walking normal ... your brain would be saying " what the hell just happened "  and your brain would need to process everything ...

I know that's a funny comparison ... but an easy way to explain just how your feeling ... so now take some deep breaths .. sit quietly... and just go over very slowly how much you've been through ... acknowledge all those different feelings ... and let your self feel whatever it wants too .. once you can get out those feelings every step of the way .. then you should be able to move forward .. but don't be surprised if you feel teary and emotions bubble up every so often .. 

Hope that makes some sense ... sending you a vertual hug.... Chrissie xx