hi I’m not sure what I want to say or who I’m saying it to but I know everyone on here probably been through the mill at some point, three weeks ago my lovely mam who’s 83 was diagnosed pancreatic cancer it’s spread to her appendix and her tummy. We were told by a lovely nurse it would be weeks to a few short months and already I can see the end coming she’s sleeping more getting tired and has lost her appetite, she drifts off and goes very quiet just with a blank stare it’s so sad to watch this strong independent woman ebbing away, We’re all doing as much as we can and being around her but every day I go to work thinking is this the day she leaves us, I know we not going to go to months I can just see it coming quicker than I imagined and I’m scared in case she’s frightened it sounds awful but I’d rather she left us than be in horrible pain but I feel like that’s a terrible thought
