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Breast cancer lymph node clearance and now waiting for ct

mejules
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Just need a little pick me up I guess. Got diagnosed with bc about 70mm lump in right breast oestrogen positive her2 negative spread into lymph nodes so just awaiting appointment for ct scan. Again it’s the waiting - wveryblittle ache pain I’ve put it down to it spread to bone or liver or lung etc. In myself physically I feel fine and part of me thinks how can I have cancer if I feel so normal  but if it’s spread to other areas how will I cope knowing that they possibly can’t treat me x just feeling low today 

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    Hello mejules,

    I am so sorry you’re feeling low today.  I guess this is the journey we are on.

    How many lymph nodes were positive?  Thing is the NHS are super vigilant and I was told if 4 or more a routine CT scan would be done.  Not nice waiting, worst part of this journey - everyone says it.  But scans and Xrays are the best weapons to find cancer before it becomes symptomatic.  Looking at the positive when you get the results that all is clear that peace of mind feeling will be wonderful.  If it has spread, then there are so many treatments that can help us to live the best life we can and for a longer time.  

    I am the biggest worrier but pulled myself together this way. I said to myself, am I going to die today? NO....am I going to die next week?  NO......next month? NO........next year?NO......so why let cancer even ruin one of those precious days when I feel well?  

    This is our journey and when one of us feels down everybody will be here to lift you up again.

    xxxxx

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    Hi

    i could kick myself for letting it get to me. I have been so positive but every time I go to the hospital and get more bad news I let it knock me back down. I’m determined to do my weekly park run tomorrow and carry on as normal. Just a blip today. 

    Thank you for replying it does really mean a lot to know not alone and there is support. They didn’t say how many nodes were effected but doing a mastectomy and node clearance in few weeks if my ct scan appointment is done and results clear. If it has spread can’t gonagead with that treatment plan. I was looking for answers yday but he wouldn’t give them. Guess because he hasn’t got whole picture yet. You are so right in what you say - am I going to die today no am I tomorrow - no! Feeling positive already. Thank you x 

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    Always here for you - I’m slightly ahead of you with treatment xxxx

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    Hope your treatment is going well x 

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    I know how you’re feeling so just before my surgery I saw the Consultant. I said to him ‘I think it’s spread everywhere’. He replied in a cal voice ‘everybody does’.  xxxx

  • Offline in reply to petrgn

    And that I’m sure is so true x I guess it is normal to fear the worst x thanks for your little pick me up I already feel less teary and more positive x 

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    Oh thank you. Thank you. Im feeling better just reading this. Im in same boat

     

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    Hi sylby 

    Sorry to hear you going through the same. Its pants isn’t it but I do try to use this as a place to gather positivity when I’m having a low day x

     

     

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    hi 

     

    my lump is the same size as yours, and in my lymph nodes.  I too had to go for several scans so I know how you are feeling it’s normal to think the worst. Just think of it as an MOT, so you and they know exactly what you are dealing with. It’s better to know than not know.   Mine threw up some unrelated stuff that I had no idea about, a dodgy knee and a dodgy appendix which I’ve had taken out yesterday. 

     

    Big hugs from me, I’m here if you want to pm me. 

     

    WL

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    Hi wl 

    just had call ct scan Thursday but I’m dreading the results . I know it’s probably normal but I’ve got sharp pain under my shoulder blade so now I’m thinking it’s spread to liver or bone and I know if it has there is nothing I can do about it but I do hope it hasn’t but deep down I think it has. Does that make sense? X

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