Stage 1b Cervical Cancer

Three weeks ago I was giving the horrifying result of my Biopsy taken due to severe results of my recent smear.

 

My emotions have been all over the place.  I keep having the conversation in my head when I first found out the news.   I can't sleep at night it's on my mind all the time . 

I have a wonderful family.  My husband has been so supportive bless him . We also have two young children so we do have to carry on with life as normal as we wouldnt want them to know.  

My MRI is tomorrow and I am really anxious about it as I am so clostrophobix.  I have Diazapan off my doctor should I need it . We have been told to arrive an hour early then I will be able to find out if I can go into the Scanner feet first or not. If not it gives me time to take my Diazapan.

One thing that is really worrying me though however.  Despite me having regular smears (despite me not having my first smear until I was 30 - I know that was really bad.  I am now 44 and I have had lots of smears since then.  The first one though when I was 30 was aborbmal but no action was needed and I was retested a bit later on . I cant remember when that was though however.  

So despite having regular smears how have I been diagnosed with Stage 1b cervical cancer.  How has it not been spotted in other smears as Abornmal Cells and all the different stages the abormal cells go through.

I am so confused.

 

Worried Mummy

 

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