Hi there ...

Oh my, it's one of the worse things you'll ever go through ... but you know l chatted to my mum one Monday morning about comming up mine "tomorrow " and last thing she said was see ya tomorrow love... well there was no tomorrow ... at 5.20 on Monday afternoon she had a massive heart attack... she was gone with no chance to even say those things like I was so proud to have had her for my mum ... 

What I'd have given for just an hour ... you have that time I didn't ... don't look ahead .. don't do the "what ifs" don't think of tomorrow. . Live in the day ... you have time to still make lovely memories with him .. leave nothing unsaid ... admit your all scared ... and sharing tears can be bonding ... if your kids see you cry, it means they can cry... it's o.k ... 

And I'm sure your dad doesn't want every one feeling sad right now .. ask him about his childhood... when he met your mum ... how he felt when he first looked at you ... he held you when you were small and showed you how to take your first steps ... now its time to hold his hand ... help him make every day count ... none of us know if we have tomorrow. . And how you do things now, could help your children through this too ... with gentle honesty ... they will know if you keep them out of the loop ...

When I was diagnosed, we told my grandkids the truth .. but we did it calm and gentle ... I think if you do this , everyone can walk this last path with your dad holding on together ... 

Big hug to you all ... Chrissie