Hi Tracey,

First of all can I say I'm sorry you are facing this fight. I didn't want to read your post and not reply. I can only imagine how scared you are but the positive is there is hope if the doctors are giving you treatment. 

Your son and husband will rightfully so be scared but there is help for everyone to cope. I'm sure on here there is information for children and partners. 

Have they given you a stage yet or are you discussing this with the oncologist? 

I'm awaiting to be seen after discovering puckering in my breast and have imagined all scenarios but mines are still just in my head, your fight is now real but I promise you are not alone. So many women are facing this and on here there is so much support for us all. I'll be there for you if you like, I can't take away your fears but I can listen

Xx

Hi Cat

Thankyou so much for replying.

I hope your news is good news. When do you go to clinic? I haven't got a stage yet I think that might be discussed on Thursday. I don't really know. My macmillan nurse is ringing me back on Monday.

Thanks again. Have a lovely weekend x

Hi again Tracy,

I go this Tuesday at 9.10am. I am absolutely petrified if I'm honest but trying to keep busy with the kids. I must have looked so strange taking the kids to the country park today in the freezing cold with a picnic but I couldn't face being in the house. I'm finding my temper is really short as I can barely sleep and my head is pickled. I'm sure you can sympathize with that. 

How are you doing today? Have you managed to sleep any? 

Kindest regards

Hi Cat 

Do you know what the not knowing is worse than having a diagnosis. Yesterday was awful and the worst day of my life so far. Telling my boy was heartbreaking but today I feel strong and ready to kick it's ***. I'm sure I will have ups and downs especially as I start to feel unwell with the chemo but I know what I'm fighting now. The unknown is much worse.

I can totally sympathise with the lack of sleep and short temper thing. Just try and be kind to yourself. 

Lack of sleep and anxiety is exhausting, take time just for you if you can. 

Good luck for tuesday. Let me know how you get on. I'll send you a friend request and you can then message me priavatley if you'd rather. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way x

Hey Tracy, 

so sorry to hear you news :( I was also diagnosed last week and can completely understand how you feel, it’s scary and the waiting game is horrendous but focus on your beautiful family and stay positive :) 

Cat - Good luck for Tuesday hope all goes ok :) 

love to you both xxxx

Hi [@Gemma_J]‍

So sorry you have been diagnosed too. Seems there are a few of us on here who are new to this fight we find ourselves involved in. 

You stay strong too, sending lots of positivity your way. Happy to have a chat anytime xx