Hey hun. 

I literally started to cry while reading this post, it's so unfair. My mum has recently been diagnosed with an aggressive form of breast cancer, and hopefully treatment will work, but in the case of my Nan, she got diagnosed with an aggressive form of breast cancer too, and she was gone in 6 months- so I know how you feel about someone so close to you having something for so long and not being aware of it. And for that close someone to be told there isn't a cure. 

There's nothing I can say that will make you feel any better, but I'll honestly be there for you. That's what you need right now, support and someone to vent to, because it's got to make you angry, sad, god knows how many other emotions you're going through right now. But like I said, although I'm a complete stranger, I can be there for you, even if it's just a message here and there so you can get how you're really feeling out into the open, hopefully that will help. 

Keep being the strong person you are being right now, and I send lots of love and light to you, your partner and your little girl. Lots of love, 

Lexi xxxxx

It is so unfair! I'm sorry about your mom aswell as your nan. I'm having a very hard time accepting that this is not able to be cured. This is all so serial to me. I dont want to believe this. When I do actually think about how real it is and what reality and the future has in store for us I break down. I wanted so much more. I wanted to live our lives together and raise our little one together as a family. I'm so heartbroken. Maybe I sound selfish because really this isn't about me. This is about a very sweet gentle kind hearted nothing but happy all the time man. I just hate this so much! It's like a bad nightmare I really want to wake up from. I would give anything for him to not be sick and for our lives to be back to normal. Anyways thanks so much for offering your support and listening to me. It really does mean alot. Thank you.

Honestly, it is completely unfair. I don't think you'll ever accept that it couldn't be cured, and I don't think you'll ever accept that he's so sick and poorly. You are not being selfish at all. The way you speak about him shows how much he means to you, it doesn't show that you're selfish. I hope the hospital is supporting you both a lot, because the news they've gave you is huge. 

I fully understand the nightmare part, it feels like a nightmare with any diagnosis, but with your partners I can only imagine, it must feel like more than a nightmare. Hopefully, you both being strong for your little one, and being a strong family together will keep you going at the moment. 

Please, anytime you need to vent, I'm here. 

Alexia xxxxx