Hi, I am so sorry to hear your diagnosis. You are at the worst bit of your journey. When I was told over the phone I cudnt speak, just kept squeaking “ok” to the doc. The reason he phoned me was because I was about to go on holiday the next day. Double whammy! I would go to bed and just cried in private, I didn’t want to worry my husband on how I was feeling as he wasn’t coping. Just cry, cry, it will stop, it’s such a shock hearing the “cancer” word. It will probably take a few weeks to get your ct scan results and you will get stronger. By the time I had to have chemo treatment I was more than ready for it. I actually can’t believe I’m due my last treatment on Tuesday. Try to stay strong , this waiting is the longest few weeks of your life,  I wish I could wave a magic wand for you. Take care and keep in touch.