Hello Lizzy4611; looking at the time of your post I imagine you have had a disturbed night.  I have not been in your particular situation but I know the kind of situation you describe.  I think sometimes you just have to let it all out, fearing the worst of everything, then after a while you calm down and think you may have over-reacted.  I feel it is just a human thing .  I hope somebody else can be more empathetic with your situation but just wanted to say hello.  Annie