Hi Ronnie - sounds rather like my cancer - which they found after me having heart attacks end of May - had stents fitted - finally getting sorted and am lucky to be going for surgery 
I tend to think - look I have cancer - I cant do anything about so let doctors try 
I know its a big op but hope it can cure us - 
and yes I think sometimes jeez this is scary - but Ihave been organizing for when I come out - told my family what I want to happen - when they can visit etc 
its a bit like looking forward to something - hoping it will be all good news after op 
best wishes xx

Thanks Flissy. Hope your op goes ok. Yes just thinking of getting Christmas sorted before the op as won’t feel like much after. 

If the surgeon can get these beasties out I am prepared for the pain. I have my first grandchild born four months ago and I am determined she will know her Nanny. X