Hi dollydaydream,

It's perfectly natural to feel unusual emotions etc when diagnosed with cancer and they can last for quite a time. I was diagnosed with melanoma (first time around) many years ago & I still remember feeling 'detached' and not wanting anyone to get too close to me for several weeks. The second time I was diagnosed (it had returned & spread to my lymph nodes) I again had a feeling of detachment for a few weeks & I often visualised something horrible growing & spreading internally. 

I found that these feelings melted away once I'd had surgery & was told I had No Evidence of Disease (NED). 

If I can be of any help then please drop me a message. I hope all goes well with your WLE & SLNB. Make sure you get a copy of your pathology report & that they test you for the BRAF gene as this information will be of help to you should you have any progression (which hopefully won't happen).

Best wishes,

Angie (Stage 3 since 2009)

Hi there .. 

I've got feeling a little Simerla to yours ... I got breast cancer last year .. and mastectomy last July.. the one thing I'm a little pareniod about is now I don't let anyone, esp my grandkids drink from same bottle as me .. I just imagine I may pass one little cell in there ... and I'm quite a sensible lass all my life .. but can't get that thought out my head .. and hay ho, it's not a bad one to have ..

So don't worry, just be carefull it doesn't grow into an O C D where you will have a problem ... I know I have to stop there .. so it's about understanding why you feel like that .. and know everyone is different and everyone has some strange habit ... so I wouldn't over worry ... Chrissie  ; ))

Thank you so much for your reply x

I may take you up on the offer of a PM.

the nurse scared me a little when she said the hospital will to a fine needle aspiration....can’t cope with the thought of sticking a needle in my armpit all my paperwork suggests a SLNB under a general anaesthetic. X

Thank you Chris x

Its odd and quite disturbing to think like this. I would never think that of anyone as dirty or contagious if it were the other way round. 

Ive already had a little anxiety attack when I read malignant melanoma on my fit note so I think I may be a little detached and not wanting to face up to it. 

I cant cry, I can’t sleep, my memory has gone and I can’t wait to go to work Tuesday for some distraction and normality.

my husband was diagnosed with a rare blood cancer last winter and I would much rather it be all focussed on him x