Autistic Daughter and cancer

I originally posted in the introduce yourself forum about my severely non-verbal Autistic Daughter who lives in a care home having cancer.

Well we now know that the breast cancer came first and the lymphoma second, At the last biopsy her breast tumour was a positive grade 6-7 but the breast tumour has grown since then, She is on Tamoxifen to help slow everything down, but nothing can be done for her its palliative care only from here on .

She is only 22years old, I am waiting for a copy of the medical report/transcript to be sent on to me to read as, to be honest, my brain stopped taking in anything after being told Palliative care only.

we have no idea how long she has it all depends on how well the tamoxifen works, we could have 6 months a year or 10 years.

As a family, we are all reeling from the shock and as a Mum, I'm feeling like a total failure but trying to stay strong for her elder sister who I don't really think will believe its true till her sister shows signs of being ill.

The one tiny silver lining is the fact because of the Autism she has no comprehension of what is actually happening to her.

Has anyone else been in a similar situation?

I'm Trying to carry on as normal but it is the nights that I find the hardest, As soon as my head hits the pillow the what if's start rampaging around my brain.