Hello, I am new here. I have had blood in my urine five times in the last couple of months. Last Friday I received my urine test results. It said I had atypical cells. I read up on it and I am positive I have cancer. I have a urologist appt in two more weeks. The waiting in torture. I am so freaked out. I feel like everyone who looks at me knows I have cancer. I am 61 years old. I have two baby grandkids that I have prayed for. I have lived a blessed life. I have been praying and crying every minute it seems like. I know the doctor will confirm I have cancer. I am so depressed. I know I have to tell my husband but I don’t want to hurt him until the doc says the words. I am usually so positive and now that’s gone. My eyes look so sad. I feel like I am sleepwalking. I don’t want anyone feeling sorry for me. I’ve been reading a lot and I see that all these feelings are normal but it’s so hard to accept. I know there is nothing anyone can do except that I ask for any prayers. I know I am looking for a miracle but I know I can’t be in denial. I do believe in the power of prayer. To all of u out there my heart goes out to you and I pray for  you all .

️Audra