How do I decide?

Dear all

Tomorrow I see the surgeon and need to decide - lobectomy now or wait to see if nodule / tumour gets big enough for radiotherapy. Risk is that by then it may have spread.

I am symptom free, fully self sufficient and work full time . The surgery sounds life changing

I just bloody wish they had TOLD me what to do. I am reeling from the fact that I have cancer . How  can I decide any thing ??

I just want my Mum and want to be looked after...pathetic but true :confused:

 

Any advice or experience much appreciated

Ta Mush