Big virtual hug back to you. It’s a horrible time. There is great support here. I’m having to learn to allow all the fear and vulnerability. Impossible to ignore it, it’s like a tidal wave. But I find there are times when I’m OK. I hope you have those times too and I hope you are able to ask for help when you need it. Love to you. 

Morning to you too  blinkinlady... Please don't feel alone ... We do try to get to all new lasses or lads that need a shoulder ... But some do drop out the first pages and don't get so many replies ... But please feel free to join in anywhere you feel you'd like too ... I was the new girl, back in July last year and although I had great support, they still don't get cancer ... And how it effects so much of our lives ... But I can understand that .. but on here they get you... No matter what your feeling ...

So please feel part of this little club that no one wanted to join, but so glad we're here .. so sending you a big friendly vertual hug ... chrissie xx

Dear Chriss and everyone else who has sent lovely, supportive messages. Thank you. Tomorrow is my op so the waiting is over at least. I’m very scared. And a bit sad. I’ve been lucky with my health right up until my 60th which was in March. I never took it for granted as there has been a lot of cancer in my family. Anyway, they say there is a 10% chance my tumour is benign so you never know. Trying to make the most of every moment today and not just sit in fear. My love to you and to all the brave souls who are reading this. We all support each other with love and compassion and this is how the world should be. 

Well lets’s get the ******* out and into a biopsy dish thenyou can start the treatment phase and recover! Tomorrow is the new beginning.  

Good luck for today Caroline. All be done by rhis time tonight. 

Hey caggie ... Just think that little blighter, is out now ... You've done the hardest part, now comes the treatment to kick cancers butt .... We're always here ... We're on the same ride as you ...

Here's a big healing hug ... Strait at ya ...  XxX

Hello Gorgeous Lady, I’ve been incredibly lucky. They got it out through keyhole...all 14cms of it. 6 hour op but I’m in so much LESS pain than I expected. And clear headed despite the morphine. 

So ok today may not be so good but I’m here which all that matters right now. Even the shoulder pain is manageable (from the gas in my tummy).

so now the healing and the waiting begins....

Forgot to say... if you are on a ward I do suggest you take

ear plugs. There are two people here who are very confused and talked really loudly most of the night. I had meditative music on literally all night which with the morphine helped a lot. 

Fantastic!  Recovery should be much more comfortable with smaller incisions. Don’t be in pain tho, if you need help, ask for it. No point being a martyr. 

Well done. First stage complete and you’re already stringing sentences together!