Missing my children

Hi all. I am newly diagnosed with leukaemia and have been in hospital for 22 days now, going through chemotherapy . I am missing my two sons dreadfully. They are 3 and 5. And they lost their dad 10 months ago in a motorbike accident. So it's like they have been abandoned again.

My parents and sister are looking after them for which I am blessed.

When I video call my son's my 5 year old cries and it breaks my heart. I promised them I would always be there for them.

How is anyone else coping with missing young children??

They are my reason for fighting.... But I am reduced to tears every day.... Missing them... and feeling like I have let them down.

They have visited but not recently as gave colds and I can't have any infections....

Thankyou in advance for any replies

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