Im lying here in bed next to my wonderful husband of 2 years and today we have been told he has a large bowel tumour. It was so unexpected, no symptoms other than bowel habit changes and recent weight loss we put down to a change in our lifestyle. A fit and healthy non smoker, a good good man. We' ve both been married before and through the mill and were happy we had found each other, soulmates if you like. Now this, we are utterly devastated. We now wait fkr further CT scans, MRI and sigmoidoscopy. Initial CT shows no spread to liver, but I am now so scared these further checks will deliver devastation. I have no idea what to do bext. I feel like someone is squeezing my heart. Im in such pain for my husband and feel helpless. If anyone can help me, in any way, please do.x