Hi I’m lynne , I’ve just been diagnosed with Squamous Cell

I was diagnosed 2 days ago with squamous cell carcinoma, it’s in my tonsil, just behind it too and in both my left and right lymph nodes. I’m absolutely petrified, waiting on a MRI to confirm it’s not spread anywhere else , the ct scan showed that it hadn’t so fingers crossed. I’m meeting with a specialist on Saturday. What is scaring me the most is the way the doctors have been looking at me , it’s with such sympathy and I leave feeling I have no hope ️, I’m only 38 years old , I don’t smoke or drink and I’m usually healthy , I’m hoping I have a good chance of beating this xx

  • Hi there... bless ya, it's even more scary when you have a young family ... May help to phone the oncology team, and tell them how your feeling , and get those things explained ... the look they gave, could just be because your so young , and they are human and it must effect them some times too ...

    Unfortunately cancer doesn't take no prisoners... so many healthy people get this too, though the odds are better for them ... even babies have been born with this horrible cancer ... 

    Wer always here if you need a shoulder to lean on ... it's not gonna be easy but you can get there ... wer all on this journey too ... just look around and wer all on this rollercoaster holding each others hand ... so whatever feelings your feeling, we've had them along the way ..

    Thinking of you... Chrissie 

  • Thank you so much for commenting, I think I’m just being over sensitive at the moment and just wanting people to treat me normally. I’m so glad i found this forum as it’s given me great comfort to talk with people who understand and who are going through the same thing xx

  • Hi ...  if you go through other threads on here, you'll see just how scary those first days are ... it's one of the most things people write about ... l wish we could have more counselling in those first days ... it was the hardest part of my breast cancer journey... and that's one of the reasons l look on here most days, coz l remember so well, the thought of the unknown ... it's like being the star of a horror story we can't wake up from.. just wishing someone would say ... no course you've not got cancer ... and the  realisation there's no other way forward ...

    I cried and yelled for two days solid, stayed in my bedroom and wouldn't see anyone ... but on the third day l woke up ready to take it on ... look it in the eye, and jump on that rollercoaster... and l said ... it may beat me, but it won't change who l am, and I'll kick it's *** every step of the way ... and if l loose my journey, the last thing is I'll still be sticking two fingers up to it ... 

    So you can have all those normal feelings, then get your boxing gloves on and you give it a good kicking too .. you know there will be ups and downs ... but wer here for both ... so wer all with you.. hold on, it's a bumpy ride ... but your not on your own ... so be kind to your heart, and realise just how brave you are ...

    Chrissie