After my diagnosis for lung cancer a few days ago I feel so numb and so much in shock i don’t seem to be able to function or even think straight.

I have tried to stay focused but each time it comes back to the same thing, that the future prognosis wasn’t good and now the things I had planned for the future which requires any time of effort now seems to be absolutely pointless

Tonight my partner and I sat and talked quite seriously about the future but both of us were only just about keeping the other afloat so to speak as we were trying very hard not to be tearful. For the past six months we were concerned about my forthcoming renal transplant but now since the diagnosis of lung cancer as well even that can no longer go ahead.  Time does seem so very short indeed for all the things we wanted to say and do and things are moving so quickly now I cannot even begin to comprehend everything

I have my pre-op assessment next week and no doubt the operation to remove the lung may well be very soon after that, but with my current health status, I can help wondering if I’ll even survive that.  Neither can I bear to think of leaving my partner whom I love so dearly and it worries me so much to know he will be alone.

Can someone please help me to understand these feelings?