hey,
i have recently found out that my grandad hasn’t bowel cancer and don’t know how I can really cope. Like he is the most important man in my life and I have an amazing bond with him. He is the only male figure I really have. I haven’t stopped crying since I found out but it is only when I’m alone. I’ve gone away and I just feel so guilty and have just been thinking of him and how I left him. Idk I just don’t know how to deal with it probably
