We recently found out my dad has terminal lung , liver and spine cancer ... I am devasted but trying to hold it together especially in front of him and my mum. It seems especially cruel as he already has MND- I find myself flitting between burying my head and spending days in tears. I may be 39 but I can’t imagine life without him in it - inside this little girl needs her daddy as much as ever. Next week I will be visiting for Christmas- his last one - this morning I wrapped his presents - what do I say in his card ? On his tags? If it hurts this much now I can’t imagine what the next chapter is gonna be like .I don’t know what to do what to say what to think - I just want to go back in time to when he was approaching 40 and I was approaching 10 . I’m frightened I don’t say enough - don’t say the right thing - to make sure he knows just how much he is loved without bursting in tears
