Yes, it's a horrible feeling. And on this site many of us know, of course,exactly what you are going through. I got diagnosed with penile cancer in September 2016. A cancer that is ghastly, but with a great chance of a cure, just like your cancer.

You will start to feel mentally better once the treatment starts. Almost all cancer sufferers say that.  And you will find, one year down the line, that you will probably feel much better than you could possibly have imagined at the time of diagnosis. That is certainly my case. Best wishes. Harry.