i don’t know why I’m writing this or if it will help me. 5 weeks ago my mum had what we thought was a stroke and was rushed to hospital. She is only 76 so it came as a shock. 

After an MRI scan it came back that she had liver and lung cancer that has spread to her brain and this had caused her stroke like symptoms. 

Yesterday we were told there is nothing that can be done for her and it’s terminal. I am broken and don’t know what to do or how to react. The hospital won’t give us a time frame and I just feel so angry and upset. My mum has never had a drink or a cigarette in her life. 

I know we have to carry on as normal but what is normal anymore. 

My parents live in Devon which is about 3 hours away and I’ve been travelling down every weekend to help my dad care for her. I don’t know what to do now. I am spending as much time with them as I can but I feel useless and helpless.

i know life goes on and we have to make mums time with us good and memorable but I just don’t know how to. Mum keeps apologising but she has nothing to be sorry for. 

Im sorry for rambling but I’m still in shock. Thank you for listening.