Oh hunny, I think it's natural that whatever our babies get we always think "did we do something wrong" when my young son got diabetes at 14 I blamed my jeans ... did I feed him the wrong things ... I just cried with guilt until one day he asked me to stop crying, he said he could cope with the rest ... so we worked together to keep him as healthy as poss ... he's 36 now and doing well ..

One of my cousins grand daughter had leukaemia when she was about 9 ... I remember we had a family picnic and she sat by me, while on a break from her treatment, and when she found out my son had to inject his self twice a day .. she cried and said how brave he was ... that made my heart cry for her ...she's now grown with a baby of her own ... and her nan tells me she's doing amazing ...

So did I give my son diabetes... did her mum give her leukaemia... no , it may all be in the jeans but we have no control over that ... so please stop feeling guilty .. you will need all your courage to walk this journey with your baby ... us mums are braver then we give our self's credit for ... these  little ones are stronger then we realise ... you hold on tight... this journey is one hell of a bumpy ride ... but I know when I stopped blaming my self and got in the mindset to take it on ... my son coped soon as he saw me cope ... lucky he didn't catch me crying while in the bath ... that was me time ...

Thinking of you all ... big big hug, be kind to yourself ... chrisie xx