Not so long ago my mom told me my aunt has cancer and only has five years to live. I just don't understand why she of all people has the disease. She is one of the kindest gentlest people I've ever met and she has three children who's dad is in university. The youngest child is only 8 and is still trying to come round the fact his parents have split up and now his mom is dying. I'm sorry for going on and probably not making any sense since this is my first time using a forum but I just can't come to terms I have at most 5 years with my beloved aunt. She has looked after me since I was born and became my best friend. I'm just so angry at the world for making her a victim of this diabolical disease. I would rather I have the disease and she not to because I can't imagine a world without her in it. I've been crying for so long and my mom says not to cry about the living but I just can't help it. 

Sorry for wasting your time if you bothered to read this but I just needed a release