Hello. I am new to this. I never dreamt I'd need this forum and I guess if you're here too, you're in a similar boat and my heart goes out to you.
I am in total shock at how in the space of a few weeks our world has been turned upside down. If you're on this site, I guess you know that feeling too well.
My adorable husband has been going through all the tests for lung cancer and enlarged lymph nodes. We get the diagnosis in a week's time as to type and stage.
My husband is amazing and deals with each step as it comes along and I am a blubbering mess! The only thing that makes him cry us seeing me upset, so I feel totally useless that I can't hold it together. Where does one find the strength to deal with this? I'm usually strong and cope, but the emotion around this is too much. How do you tell children and elderly parents? I can't bear the thought of their upset.
He's self employed and stopped working now. We're going to borrow from family for the mortgage so will manage some how.we're going to out a charge on house, downsize and repay at later date, which family ok with, but it's all such a worry. My mind's racing with how to cope both financially and emotionally. Nigh times are the worse. I can't switch my mind off and can't sleep for more than 2 hours at a time. Please Forgive me for off loading here. I'm blessed with wonderful family and friends but I feel so alone and somehow just venting my fears and feelings and reaching out to someone out there who is up in these small hours.
