Hi there ... your not selfish at all .. you just love her so much , and it is a really scary time as everything seems to be just “waiting” and that sends our brains into overdrive... sadly there’s no way around it .. and you have three girls relying on you to keep it together... when we were waiting for my operation for brest cancer, me and my son were doing all the “what ifs” and it was overwhelming... my daughter in law sat us down and said.. o.k it’s cancer , we’ll deal with that, and take every problem if and when it arises.. no more “what ifs” we’ll deal with each one ... together.. and she was so right .. and we did what she said and slowly you can deal with it , one day at a time .. 

remember though, every feeling and emotion your going through is natural... we have been there .. that’s why you hear the word rollercoaster used so much .. you get on this ride and your up one minute, down the next .. hold on tight, it’s a bumpy ride .. but the calmer you can be will take a bit of pressure off ... I’m so glad my son was calmer as it helped me feel a tad braver and his was the first face I saw after my op .. and now 10 weeks post op, wer dealing with things a lot better, thanks to my amazing daughter in law..

sending you a big hug for you and your brave lady ... Chrisie x ️

Many thanks for your kind comments hope yourself and family are ok I read your comment and it’s does make sense I feel a little better many thanks xxx