welcome to the forum and believe me, you're not alone and every feeling you will encounter is normal with this journey.
We always think this happens to other people, so when its happening to us it is a shock and every single one of us reacts differently.
Rely and lean on your friends and family in the early days while the information is being put together and presented to you. The NHS are fantastic in planning for YOU and the team you get will be caring and professional in every way hopefully, to put your concerns and ease and help plan how you will get through this.
Welcome to Cancer Chat. I am so sorry to hear about your recent diagnosis. As Sean has already said, cancer affects all people in different ways. Some get very weepy, some angy, some want to know everything there is to know about their particular type of cancer. There are all sorts of emotions, so yours is perfectly natural.
Have you got a treatment plan yet?
This is a scary time, but it gradually becomes a little less stressful once you start treatment and start fighting this horrible disease.
Please keep in touch. There is always someone here whenever you feel like talking.
I am due to see the oncologist and nurses on Tuesday for my plan I know its chemotherapy intravenously and it's localised advanced. I'm not even scared I will lose my hair, I even bought a bandanna yesterday....I know the survival rate is only up to 2 years but I'm not any emotion at the minute. Perhaps when I talk on Tuesday I might be different.
When I was informed that I probably had multiple myeloma, I stayed on a fairly even keel and not emotional.
I did have moments of emotion, caused mostly by other peoples' unhappiness but they were few and far between. Also the medication I've been on has a tendency to make me emotional for a few seconds now and then for no discernable reason. I seem to get more emotional reading some of the heartbreaking stories on here but it's not always the case.
With cancer, everything's normal. For a given value of normal.
