Let me just start by saying I have recently turned 21 in the middle of planing a wedding. Anyway in the middle of march my mum who has issues with her gullet anyway has had to go get yearly operations on it since I I can remember. Anyway she's forever putting people first and kept putting off the op till eventually she couldn't even drink water then decided to go to a&e because of her issues they thought it was just the case of her neglecting to come in for the op anyway they did it found a tumour after a very long wait we where told not to worry it was coming back as inflammed and nothing else. All was great for another month till the same thing happened again she went back for more biopsy and they have now given her months. It's now in her gullet windpipe and lymph nodes there talking about making her comfortable. I live 300/400 miles away so unfortunately can't be there currently for her I have moved the wedding forward till next month and the company I work for is going into administration so no big loss in that respect so am planing on staying back home to support her etc. My problem is I can't stop crying and thinking of what the future holds my mums a single mum to 5 no dad or grandparents on scene my youngest sibling is 15 how are we going to cope my mums my rock I can't imagine life without her  stupidity I'm starting to resent my partner as both his parents and both sides of grandparents are alive yet mine has 5 children with no one else but her I just want to talk to people who will understand sorry x