Hi, so sorry to hear about mum. I understand exactly what you are feeling. Please don't feel awful. Firstly the best thing you can do is look after you, eat and rest. That way you will have the strength to support mum. Mum will also need time to work through her own thoughts and rest too. Please speak with MacMillan, they have been a great help to me and are there for you too. You will continue on this emotional rollercoaster but hang on and you will come through it. I replied to another post earlier and said that my mum passed suddenly so i had so much unsaid, this time round I tell my partner every day how much I love him. You don't need to be with mum every waking moment, but when you are there tell her how much you love her and talk about your memories and funny stories you remember growing up, like you mum will have good days and bad, will sometimes want to talk about her illness and practicalities, take your queue from there. Take care sweetheart xx