Hello Ann

I am so sorry to hear about mum. Everything that you are feeling is natural, try and think of all your feelings in blender with the lid off and on full speed, what you are feeling is all part of the process and it shows how much you care. I lost my mum suddenly and I was mad at the world as like your mum she was kind and why her when there are such awful people in the world. Dad will also be feeling much the same as you, and you will need to take care and support each other. I had so much unsaid for mum that this time round I tell my partner how much i love him every day, we still tease each other and do as much of the normal stuff that we can. Outwardly I am functioning but inside I feel broken. Once the tears and the anger subsides you will find an inner strength that will get you through this. There is so much that can be done don't give up hope. Take one day at a time and continue with the forum, you are not alone sweetheart. xx