So my dad has recently been diagnosed with leukaemia and his treatment is starting in April. I'm not sure if this is normal but I don't feel anything or any different? And I feel so bad because I can't even image what he must be going through.

I never cry but when he told me I broke down and cried so much for the first time.  I haven't told my friends either so maybe that is why I don't feel any different?  Like reality hasn't kicked in? Sometimes I want to cry so much especially when I read things like "coping with death". I'm just wondering has anyone else been through this? Is it normal? 

Sorry I know it's a really selfish to be asking this but I don't know what else to do or who to speak to about it. 

Thank you.