Hi it's my first time on the forum. I had a lumpectomy 2 weeks ago with the removal of a tumour of 11mm plus 19 lymph nodes, 4 of which are also affected. Originally was told it was grade 2 but now told it is a 3. Unfortunately I still have some pre cancerous cells so they are having to operate again . then chemo and radiotherapy. Because of the 4 lymph nodes they are sending me for a CT scan and although I coped quite well with the cancer diagnosis I am terrified that the cancer will have spread.I know these are normal feelings but they are overwhelming me at the moment. I nursed a goood friend whose breast cancer had spread to her liver and bones and who was given 18 months , although she lived for nearly 3 years from diagnosis. My sister also had breast cancer and has survived and is well after 5 years. I am trying really hard to enjoy my life and take each step as it comes but I cannot get the feeling that it may have spread out of my head. Thanks for listening.