When I found out I had cancer I was so shocked and scared I didn't no if to laugh or cry instead I bottled it all up then the day I had to go to Southampton to meet my cancer doctor to get my pet ct scan done and to get my cancer days timetable it hit me I really have cancer I didn't no how serious it was till she told me it was stage 3 and I could no longer have kids due to my treatment I then cried so hard me having another baby was my dream then having that ripped away killed me .. I had my nan and mum or turned and it's OK u never wanted kids anyway ... i felt like they really where trying to put me down they really didn't no me that we'll to say that .... it break my heart In  to pieces..so everyday for 2 months I had radiotherapy every day chemotherapy I had never felt so alone in my life I felt I had no one to speak to ... now I've lost family and friends since finished my treatment which I feel they where only there being fake....Having no one to speak to or ever feeling comfortable to speak to a guy and telling them this kills me ...