Not really sure why I'm writing on here, I guess it's for a little reassurance that or maybe just to vent my feelings.

my dad has been diagnosed with cancer of the jaw bone and saliva gland, his pain seems to be getting progressively worse by the day and it's breaking my heart that I can't do anything to take the pain away and make everything better for him. 

I feel so selfish at the thought of losing him, I'm too young to lose my dad there's so much stuff I'm yet to do that I know would make him so proud. 

He is a strong man and that's my only hope for him to get better. He's such a good man and this is such a cruel disease my heart truly goes out to him and anyone else that is experiencing this. 

Second MRI scan tomorrow which I'm only guessing is to see if it has spread, my parents are trying make it easier on me by not telling me the full story but it's making me feel worse.