My darling brave mum had a ct scan today and unfortunately it showed a 4 cm lung cancer. They said it had spread to the surrounding lymph nodes and also the abdomen lymph nodes just under the lung all on the right side. If the abdomen lymphs hadn't swollen she would never have known. I expected the outcome today I can see such a difference in her she is loosing so much weight. She is having a camera down her nose next week and they will take a lung biopsy. That will tell us how to move forward with treatment and the kind of cancer etc  I really wanted to ask how long but I know they can not tell us and I know it sounds rude and morbid but I like facts and truth it's how I process things. My mum also has pagents disease of the Vulva so we wonder if the cancer came from there. Suppose I'm looking for similar stories so I can try and understand what may happen!!! 

The worse thing for me is my dad upset I have seen my mum upset over the years but my dad I struggle with. I feel like the adult of them like I need to protect them I don't want them to worry that I'm sad or hurting. 

Sorry if my spellings and grammar are bad or my post doe not make sense I struggle to put things down and express myself. 

Thank you for reading. 

Gemma x